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Ahhh Monday, here you are again... you know most weeks, something flies along my twitter timeline or pops up on Facebook or I spot something online that inspires my Monday Motivation post... But last week something happened that made me think this Monday it should probably be about me... *wipes sweat off brow* they should give out bravery awards in Weight Watchers ya know!!!




Last Thursday I walked into my Weight Watchers class thinking maybe, just maybe, I had hit the 100lb loss, I had been fecking about for about for weeks but my tracker was perfect... I'd walked... drank water... swam... surely this week...  



At a glance, the room looked a little different... I spotted my usual leader wasn't taking the class... Instead there was someone beside the scales, someone I felt I already knew... her before and after pics have been all over the place... I read her blog all the time... I follow her on Facebook... she's a Weight Watcher leader herself ... and all my Irish followers would know her from her amazing blog the Niptuck Food Blog!!! I know right!!! 





You know they say you should never meet your heroes... Well lemme tell ya... she is awesome! I couldn't bring myself to tell her who I was, I'm a big chicken, roasted and stuffed with gravy... oooohhhh... (mental note: never write blog posts when hungry!)...  plus I'm painfully shy about admitting who I am, people who know me in real life would never guess that being I'm so gobby... I always think people have an expectation and they will be bitterly disappointed when they meet me... But I was so distracted by her and her fab figure (and cute sneakers BTW!)... her before and after pics were at the scales large as life and they are SO inspirational! So when I stood on the scales, it took me a minute to notice that the 3.5lb loss had pushed me over the 100lb loss!!! 




Amazing? Yes! Inspirational? Yes! Motivating? Yes! Hardest thing I've ever done?! Abso-feckin-loutely!! 

It has been hard... really hard... disheartening... I've wanted to give up so many times.. I have binged... not tracked... cried... been so angry with myself... driven round the roundabout on the way to class twice talking myself into going, people of Terenure I'm not lost I swear... I've had two amazing leaders and honestly that's half the battle... I'm happy to get a telling off every Thursday when I know I've been bold... but I also want someone who understands how much I want this and when I've tried hard and the results aren't showing, I just need a bit of a lift... both of them have done that... But for every 'you've stayed the same' or 'You're down a half pound..' Here I am, 7stone 3.5lbs lighter... in my mind, I'm over the hardest part and I'll tell you why... 


Before I started "properly", you know that 'Oprah moment' you're suppose to have... well something just clicked... I'd had enough, I was so fed up with myself... My knees hurt... I had no neck... I was breathless doing the smallest things... I was judged for my size... Not my skills or personality... But I stuck with it this time... I'm now at a point where some of the things on my 'I'm Done' list >>> HERE  <<< are well and truly done... I'm never going back there... Below are my weigh-in cards for the last two years (I re-wrote them out neatly)... It's baby steps... This weight didn't go on overnight... I didn't go to bed and wake up 10 stone heavier... I'm an emotional gal... Food was my friend when I thought I had none... I was at a very low point... Slowly but surely, I've taken better care of myself and stopped worrying about others who didn't worry about me... I'm a people pleaser... and I realised I had to start pleasing myself first, put ME at the top of my list for a change...  Despite the number on the scales... I can buckle a belt on a plane, FYI never scream in delight in an enclosed plane... ahem... I can walk upstairs without stopping... I can shop in 'normal' shops... I've got my collarbones back, nearly... My blood pressure / skin / energy levels are all better! I can walk into a restaurant and not care who is staring at me ... I'm having my lunch and pointing it so feck off... I appear to have developed a bit of an attitude problem too! 

Sometimes we get so hung up on a number... Here's a non scale victory that happened to me a couple of weeks ago coming through passport control in Dublin Airport... 

Security guard: NEXT! 

Me: *hands over passport trying to look like I'm not a terrorist* (What is that about?!?)

Security guard: *silence* *looks at me... looks at passport* ... *looks at me again.. looks at passport*  *finally speaks...* 'Is this your passport?'

Me: 'um.. Yes... God aahhh ...' 
      *panics and pulls a face that makes me look like I've a handbag full of cocaine*

Security guard: 'Have you lost a bit of weight?'  

Me: 'oh... um.. yes' *beetroot face* 'I'm doing weight watchers... 
      Down 6 and a half stone so far...' 

Security guard: 'Fair play to ya ... Next!' 



so yeah... 

Morto!!! I wanted to kiss him but the queue behind me was massive and everyone was tired, wanted to get the hell outta there... but if I was a little bit braver and a bit more mental, I would have thrown a look at the 'judgey' people in the queue and shouted 'So there!' ... Well that, and I'm pretty sure that safety glass is tough... and I don't want to be done for assault in the airport...  Ahem... 

So.. What's the bottom line? How did I do it? What miracle was it? Simple... 

I didn't give up this time... 

Losing weight takes time... It doesn't matter what plan you follow, ProPoints, F&H, Syns, counting calories... it's healthy eating, portion control and exercise... and whatever suits YOU... people often tell me to follow this or that plan... no thanks... I'm happy doing it my way and well done you for doing it yours... but clearly this is what works for me... when I stick with it... 

Life happens, and some weeks your body will go against you... but don't give up... periods, bloating, the ice cream man, that one cocktail that turned into a full blown night with a full Irish the next morning ... no matter what, there will always be a wedding, birthday, BBQ, but just enjoy it... In 100 years time will anyone worry that you were ONLY down half a pound last week?! Get a little perspective, life is too short to be miserable...  

Measure yourself, that muscle V fat is true... and some people get so upset not realising they're toning up... if only they tried on a tight pair of jeans they would realise their body is changing! My three rolls of belly fat are now just one big belly... yes its big but if you throw me a 'OMG she's huge' look... I'll whip out my WW card so fast you'll be blinded by the silver sevens on the back! 


and, finally... half a pound is a massive achievement!!! Don't knock it... look at my cards... it's slow and steady... there's ups and downs... and there's still a way to go.. I'm no where near my goal yet but my body is now at a place where I can work with it better... swim faster... walk further... I feel better about myself... and I know its a cliche but seriously, if I can do it... anyone can... 

I started WW many times but this is when I decided enough was enough and I started to record my losses properly on the 2nd August...


Wanna hear something funny... I thought by starting in August, no one would see me in class until the September 'rush' and surely I'd have given up by then... 



Whatever you do this week... take it a day at a time... a meal at a time... an hour at a time... but remember you're doing it for you... so don't give up on yourself! xxx

*hides under desk* 



  

30 comments

  1. I love this, and I love YOU. Look what baby steps can do ;-) xxx

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    1. Back at ya mama... we'll get there!!! xxx

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  2. You are so amazing, so inspirational and always bring me to tears, cos you say what I feel,. You have inspired me to do my own 'im done, list and keep me going each week. I'm only at the beginning of my journey but like you I'm not giving up this time. Thank you for posting your weekly losses, cos I've been getting a little disheartened with the 1/2 pound losses but youve made me realise, it's all in the right direction, thank you xxx

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    1. Baby steps Helen... we'll get there... and yay for the 'done' list ... you won't look back once you've put it on paper! xxx

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  3. Amazing post & amazing achievement. I've 1.5-2st to lose & have been telling myself I can never do it. I've started again, for about the 5th time in the last few months. I'm hoping this time is the right time. Reading your blog has given me some belief. Baby steps. Hopefully. Keep up the good work, you're an inspiration.

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    1. thank you... I can't tell you how many times I've started so many weight loss plans... stick with it... even when you think you just can't do it any more... its worth it! x

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  4. Well done on your 100lb loss, it's an amazing feeling. I identified so much with this post, you're honest is just fab, and you've inspired me numerous times along my ongoing journey. Your blog, and Niptuck keep me going. Well done again :)

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    1. Thanks missy... hows your journey going? x

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  5. Firstly congratulations.. This is my first time reading your blog. Thanks you have just helped me to get back on my weight loss journey. Thank you so much

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    1. thank you... that one comment makes it all worth the effort x

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  6. I started ww last week of January this year and ive lost 4st 7lbs so far .it feels amazing.Keep up the good work as its worth it to be able to shop in places like topshop ect.

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  7. CONGRAULATIONS!!! You keep me going too, with your ups and downs............and have me in stitches (when I'm stressed and taking time out from work) - you keep it real! Thanks a mill

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    1. thank you so much... if you can't laugh at yourself then its not worth talking about! LOL x

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  8. Good for you, at the minute I am 1lb off 1lb on, but I am still determined to loose that last11lbs, I track as honest as I can, but still at the moment in a rut.so far lost 1st 4lbs, I know I will get there, maybe not as fast as others, I will stick in there.

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    1. It's depressing when someone joins and gets to got in 6 weeks and is done with it all... and you're sitting waiting and trying but its half a pound...sheesh... but I'm living proof its worth the wait... stick with it xxx

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  9. WOW WOW wow... Doll you are AMAZING and AWESOME
    Always an inspiration and a motivation..... I've a big stoopid smile on my face reading this and a lump in my throat too.. i'm thrilled for ya, really am :):):)

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    1. awwww thanks missy! You've been there every single step! Loves you x

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  10. A pleasure to read, a pleasure to hear about your progress, your honestly stirkes a chord, what a lovely security man!, please do flash your silver seven blinged card at someone soon with pride in being 'done'.
    Warm congratulations on your achievments
    Margaret Burke

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    1. thank you... every chance I get I'll be blinding people! LOL x

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  11. Love this xxx
    Well done you!! ��

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  12. Enormous congrats, delighted for you!

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    1. thanks missus... hows the bundle doing? x

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  13. Congratulations! What a wonderful & encouraging post. You look beautiful!

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  14. Your blog is very inspiring - it is so easy to give up when you stay the same for a couple of weeks or only lose 1/2 lb but seeing your cards does motivate me to try again. Keep up the good work and many, many congratulations on how far you have come so far.

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    1. every little bit is a step closer to your goal... xxx

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  15. Go Girl! You look absolutely incredible and I understand what a long ole journey it is...I lost 4stone around 4 years ago and have been 'keeping it off' ever since so I know how absolutely incredible it feels to reach a certain target! :)
    Auwww I just feel so excited/happy for you looking at those cards!
    xo
    www,cakevsscales.co.uk

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