Mind games... if there was a degree in it, I'd have passed with flying colours! I talk myself in and out of things all day long, if anyone ever spots me in the crisp aisle in Tesco THAT's what I'm doing there... talking myself out of a 6 pack! My mind is my worst emery... I constantly think I'm imposing on people, I think I'm in everyones way, I feel like most restaurants don't want someone fat sitting in their place because it's just not cool... I feel people judge me 24/7... I think the lads stocking the shelves in my local Supervalu think I'm crazy! 'here's yer wan taking photos of the biscuits again...' You know what... none of these things are true... none of them... people are just getting on with what they're doing and I'm there making mountains out of molehills!
I have learned to tame some of the voices in my head, that was through therapy and group counselling... it was talking to good friends who understood that I wasn't mad, I was suffering in silence... It's hard, really hard... when you feel worthless and that no one really gets it, you feel isolated and wonder why you're even bothering...
But what are we afraid of? Being healthy? Looking well in a summer dress? Feeling comfortable in our own skin? Why do we sabotage ourselves so much? The voices that whisper 'you're not worth it'.. 'it's only one cake' ... 'sure you're never going to get to goal anyway...' these are the voices that we need to silence... I've always said losing weight is not what we put in our mouths, it's what's going on between our ears...
Surround yourself with people who get it, people who understand... people who just want you to feel comfy on the beach... people who celebrate with you when you stay the same because some weeks that's a victory, people who get it when you feel like you're going no where but tell you to stick with it... They're the voices we need to listen to...
I have to agree with this 100%! My mind gets me every time!
ReplyDeleteMy son told me tonight that since he can remember I have said I'm going to lose weight, he is now 25 and I still can't get it right
ReplyDelete:( Feeling pretty upset that my brain is not fully focused and I can't keep it up Tfs x
Hey Maria, I was in a WW class when I was 4! I was brought with my mum who had no childcare back then and it warped my vision of food of life... That and some very non supportive family members (who, looking back now, could've done with a ww class themselves!) But I think some of us will always struggle with our weight and I think if we can get happy first, then take the weight loss second we might do better... lifes too short to be constantly pointing and weighing and not living... You've already got it right! You've got a 25 year old son! You're a mum and that's the biggest challenge around! Be kind to yourself, it's something I still struggle with... xxx
DeleteI am new to this blog and I signed up to WW last week, its my first weigh in tonight. I am approaching 60 and just about to get a promotion. I don't want to be fat and 60. I want to be healthy and fit for my new job and my new decade!!! I can see this blog is going to give me a lot of inspiration!!! Wish me luck!!! Yvonne :)
ReplyDeleteBest of luck Yvonne! You'll rock it! x
Deletefirst 2 weeks and lost 2.5 pounds each week!! not a bad start. I love your blog!! x
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