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Scoffies...

Following on from last weeks snack pack post, here's some new ones called Scoffies from 'Cheestrings' which I spotted in Tesco... The portion size on these is 20g but I couldn't see anyone not literally scoffing the 60g box... Anyone tried them out? x



Cheestrings Scoffies, Apricot, cherry cubes & yogurt raisins 
per 20g portion - 3SP
per 60g pack - 8SP



Cheestrings Scoffies, Cherry strings, biscuits & choc raisins 
per 20g portion - 3SP
per 60g pack - 9SP




Cheestrings Scoffies, Fruity mix & white chocolate shortcake pieces
per 20g portion - 3SP
per 60g pack - 9SP



Go Go's!

Gorgeous Goodness! These are handy snack packs I spotted in Tesco last week... I know a lot of readers love having these handy packs in the car or gym bag... I also have a lot of followers who are on a lot of SmartPoints now and struggle to eat them, these might just fill in the gap with nuts and dried fruit... I haven't tried them but do take note the different pack sizes... Anyone tried them yet? 


Go Go's Protein Power, a mix of beans, cheese and chorizo bites per 70g snack pack - 10SP



Go Go's Oat-Tastic mix of beans, cheese bites and fruity flapjacks, per 55g snack pack - 8SP



Go Go's Full Of Beans mix of beans, cheese bites 
and chocolate covered beans with pretzels, per 55g snack pack - 8SP

Easter Cakes...

The yellow of the daffs outside has rubbed off on the chocolate coated packaging in the the shops! Some easter goodies that will be tempting you over the next week... x 


Mr. Kipling Lemon French Fancies. per 27g fancy - 5SP



Cadburys Mini Egg nest cakes - per 37g 'nest' cake - 9Sp 



Dunnes Stores Simnel slices per 52g slice - 9SP



Mr. Kipling Lemon Bakewells, per 43g bakewell - 8SP




Good riddance!



Guilt... anyone else suffer from it?! When I get down in the dumps about my weight (and I do, a lot!) the guilt trips I send myself on are unreal... 'How did I let myself get to this size?!' is the first thing I rant to myself about... A lot of the time instead of being proud of myself and how far I've come, I just wonder how I could have let myself down over the years and get into this mess to start with... Where would I be in life now if I have control over my emotional eating? What kind of person would I be if food didn't comfort me and hate me at the same time...  It can even get to the point where I truly believe there's no point in going on with this journey because 'good old me' will just revert to type and put it all the weight back on again eventually right?!  This all boils down to damaged self confidence... like most people on this journey, our self esteem takes some brutal hits... from early childhood it can start to bruise and we believe what people say to us, especially those who don't have out best interests at heart... We listen to the negative talk, the back handed compliments, the digs from family and think they must be true... When I think of the energy, the hours I've wasted on the 'what ifs?' and 'might have beens' it's exhausting... the past is exactly that, the past, we can't change it! What we can change is the here and now... how we treat ourselves, what food we buy, how we cook our food, who we let into our lives, how we deal with saboteurs,  these are all things we can control... this week forget what might have been and focus on what will be... Lifting the guilt will be a burden off your shoulders... and good riddance to it! x



Chicken Lickin'...

 I spotted these new handy 100g pack chicken pieces from Carroll's meats in Dunnes, individual packs of flavoured chicken! Very handy for lunch on the go or to have in the fridge as a snack when you get home and have nothing prepared! I picked up the BBQ chicken for lunch this week...
Anyone given them a try?

x



Carroll's Rotisserie Style Chicken pieces 
per 50g - 1SP
per100g pack - 2SP



Carroll's Smokey Barbecue Chicken pieces 
per 50g - 1SP
per 100g pack - 3SP



Carroll's Honey & Chilli Chicken pieces 
per 50g - 1SP
per 100g pack - 3SP



Just Free Crisps...

Crisps from Lidl for those looking for gluten free snacks! 
SPs per 25g portion and per 125g bag!

x


Lidl - Just Free, Baked Barbecue Crisps
per 25g portion - 3SP
per 125g bag - 17SP


Lidl - Just Free, Baked Sour Cream & Onion Crisps 
per 25g portion - 3SP
per 125g bag - 15SP


I'm done...

I have a personal list... Before I shared it on here, for the ALL the world to see, I'd only ever shown it to my 3 closest friends and every single one of them cried (not my intention!) because they didn't know this is how I really felt about myself... they were sad that this is how I felt about me... and I was too... I'm so good at covering up how I really feel and they had absolutely no idea... I'm always the one to say 'I'm grand... don't worry about me...' when I'm not... but I read it again last night because I needed to remind myself of where I've been, where I am and how I can get to where I want to be... 





I’m done!!!! 

I am done blaming everybody and everything else for my obesity… 
I am done accepting verbal and mental torture from random strangers who don’t know anything about me… 
I am done being a compulsive over eater 
I am done over eating… 
I am done being worried that I wont find something in my size …
I am done being concerned that I don’t look good in something because of my size… 
I am done being making excuses…  
I am done stressing out about my size and letting it affect what and how i eat...
I am done being the Funny Fat Friend thats great to talk to and hang out with, 
   but doesn’t get included in things because she’s fat and they don't want to embarrass me... 
I am done being paranoid about eating in public, like I’m being judged by what i order and 
   how i eat it… ‘SHE’S ordering chicken wings .. really?!’
I am done being paranoid about what I buy at the supermarket, if someone looks in my trolly, 
   would they approve? 
I am done feeling sorry for myself! I’m tired of hiding behind fat clothes, 
   this summer I'm gonna be comfortable!
I am done being super self conscious... 
I am done lying to myself...
I am done being lazy...
I am done trying to hide my body... 
I am done not wearing the clothes I WANT too but the clothes 
   I HAVE to to cover me up and make the best of a bad body!
I am done wearing high heels and sitting down most of the time cause they hurt... 
   I LOVE my shoes too much not to show em off!
I am done not living the best life I can and not just for me but for my loved ones too
I am done putting myself last on the priority list. 
I am done watching minutes and days fly by without counting toward 
   something greater than where I'm at... 
I am done being overweight and unhealthy. ..
I am done being unhappy with myself...
I am done making myself feel that I'm not good enough... 
I am done feeling bad about what I did to myself... 
I am done being afraid to wear shorts in public... 
I am done being jealous...
I am done going shopping with them and hanging out with the accessories because 
   I'm too fat to buy the clothes in their shops
I am done feeling sorry for myself!
I am done being embarrassed to be me...
I am done thinking I'm not good enough...
I am done feeling tired before everyone else...
I am done shopping in only plus size shops!
I am done not being able to wear cute high heeled boots cause my calves are too big...  
I am done never wearing an actual dress, only trousers, skirts and tops 
   because I think they hide my belly better.  
I am done carrying around what feels like a whole other person everywhere I go... 
I am done saying the words "If only.." and "I wish.." and "One day.." 
I am done using food to make myself feel better, it doesn't work... 
I am done squeezing into my own bathtub... 
I am done saying 'tomorrow' ...
I am done saying I wished I looked like that! 
I am done just lying there when I could be on top!! 
I am done with the sensible bullet proof knickers.. I want lacy MATCHING stuff and I wanna see it!!!!
I am done feeling embarrassed when we go out to eat because 
  I know people are waiting for me to pig out... 
I am done with shopping in the "special sizes" section, and with the assumption that just 
   because I'm fat, I must have no sense of taste! 
I am done letting the crisps win... 
I am done with the muffin tops 
    and muffin sides, and muffin bottoms, and any other muffin related issues!!! 
 I am done pretending that my weight doesn't bother me...
I am done feeling tired all the time because I drag this big body around... 
I am done making excuses not to lose weight... 
I am done thinking I'm ugly just because I'm fat... 
I am done with inhibition (going at it with gusto this time! woohoo!)  
I am done dreading trying to find jeans that will fit over my ass... 
I am done with letting my weight run my life for me!!! 
I am done treating my body like its junk... 
I am done making excuses because I'm too afraid I'll fail! 
   failure is not an option this time so there is no excuse! 
I am done being looked down on for being overweight...
I am done being teased...  
I am done getting weight lectures from my doctor... 
I am done having 3 chins... 
I am done being the fat girl with 'such a pretty face'...
I am done being self conscious about what my arms look like when I wear sleeveless tops... 
I am done starting a diet and then just falling off again... 
I am done making excuses... 
I am done feeling like the "ugly" friend... 
I am done starting and stopping...
I am done thinking that my self worth has anything to do with what I weigh...  
I am done not being confident anymore...
I am done not feeling appreciated...
I am done relying on food to make me happy! 
I am done feeling guilty! 
I am done with sitting on the sidelines!
I am done letting others effect me!!  
I am done listening to negative thoughts!! 
I am done with negativity!! 
I am done not believing in me 100%!!   
I am done wasting time feeling bad about myself!  
I am done thinking that I have something to prove to others!  This is all for me! 
I am done stressing about hurtful family members and their big mouths... 
I am done letting words hurt me that come from people that have never had a weight problem!
I am done with stretch jeans... 
I am done with granny underwear... 
I am done covering up my cozzie on holidays...
I am done worrying if I'm going to fit in the restaurant booth... 
I am done undressing in the dark... 
I am done wondering if the people snickering next to me are doing so because of my weight... 
I am done squeezing into what I used to call "my fat jeans". 
I am done giving away cute clothes because I don't believe I can ever wear them again... 
I am done feeling like the least attractive girl at the party... 
I am done buying clothes with elastic waistbands... 
I am done wasting my precious life ...
I am done wishing I looked like someone else... 
I am done holding myself back... 
I am done putting myself last and feeling alone about it... 
I am done doing for others because I'm the big girl and what else would I be doing...  
I am done saying I don't have time for me, I'm important.. I need to make time for me! 
I am done being scared that I won't fit in places... 
I am done getting out of breath just going upstairs... 
I am done being the FAT friend...
I am done with not having energy. ..
I am done hiding in my own house! 
I am done not being able to cross my legs, like a lady...
I am done putting off life until I am "skinny"... 
I am done with plus size clothes not even fitting right...   
I am done with putting everyone else before me and my health... 
I am done feeling like I am going to burst right out of my clothes... 
I am done with the rolls of fat that have grown with the sadness... 
I am done with feeling miserable all the time... 
I am done wearing black everyday because it slims, yeah right!
I am done with hearing "you have such a pretty face, if only you lost a bit of weight... 
I am done looking into the mirror and not recognizing the person starring back at me! 
I am done not having the outside, match who is on the inside! 

I am done DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE!!!!!


Clearly I was DONE!!! but when I feel like I'm hitting a wall... I read it... I read it last night... and I realise that some things on the list don't even apply to me any more... Lots of things on that list don't even bother me now... but it reminds me of where I've been and I don't want to go back there... and THAT gives me the kick in the pants I need... 

I wrote it in anger... I was in a very sad place at the time... I remember crying whilst I typed it, hence all the typos and spaces ... but I was furious... furious at myself  I know there are lots of things that sound the same... but looking back now I know those issues meant so much... Now I read it with a touch of sadness and realise that I'm a lot stronger and more capable than I ever thought I was... and I'd like to be friends with that girl and give her a hug... 

SO if this is what it takes... do it! Write a list of where I guarantee by the time you've finished reading it you'll not only be back on the wagon... you'll be driving it! 

Whatever you do... don't regret or feel guilty about what's done... life is very short... Do what you need to do now... 



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