Hello. I've been MIA. I've been not in a good head space, like most of us and I've been trying really hard to get out of the slump I've been in... Truth is, I was very comfortable in my slump, lockdowns fed into my already low self esteem and gave me to opportunity to hide away from the world, I mean the government TOLD me to stay home, JACKPOT! Covid and bronchitis gave me nearly 6 months of illness to deal with and I was so run down my GP didn't even know where to start with me. Covid made me care for everyone else except me. Literally anyone who needed a shoulder or a hand I put them before myself, because then I didn't have to think about my weight, the stigma, the discomfort. I was at a turning point just before the pandemic where my counsellor was so happy with my progress and suddenly the world stopped for us all. Of course I gained some weight back, nearly 2 and a half stone and my fear of failure just made me think I was jinxed, no condemned, to be be this way forever... to be unhappy in this body for all time. Dramatic I know, but it's true.
Weight gain was inevitable for me, I'm just thankful I'm not back at the start line. I never wanted to be skinny. I never wanted to fit into a size 10 dress, I never had to urge to be the fittest person in the room - I just wanted to be happy in my own skin. That's still the goal. I started back at weigh ins, I've been doing my meal plan, tracking my food and wouldn't you know it, I'm down 3.5lbs, 10lbs in total since the 1st of September. I know how to do this, I know the plan that works for me (it's ProPoints btw!) and I know if I can just get out of my own way, I'll get back to a place where I'm happy being me again.
So it's not one day, it's DAY ONE!
come back doll
ReplyDeleteHey Doll, was thinking of you. Love your blog. We all go through a slump every now and again, I go through phases of it....currently in the middle of one for the last 2 years. hope you are doing well x
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