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Just Free Crisps...

Crisps from Lidl for those looking for gluten free snacks! 
SPs per 25g portion and per 125g bag!

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Lidl - Just Free, Baked Barbecue Crisps
per 25g portion - 3SP
per 135g bag - 17SP


Lidl - Just Free, Baked Sour Cream & Onion Crisps 
per 25g portion - 3SP
per 135g bag - 15SP


I'm done...

I have a personal list... Before I shared it on here, for the ALL the world to see, I'd only ever shown it to my 3 closest friends and every single one of them cried (not my intention!) because they didn't know this is how I really felt about myself... they were sad that this is how I felt about me... and I was too... I'm so good at covering up how I really feel and they had absolutely no idea... I'm always the one to say 'I'm grand... don't worry about me...' when I'm not... but I read it again last night because I needed to remind myself of where I've been, where I am and how I can get to where I want to be... 





I’m done!!!! 

I am done blaming everybody and everything else for my obesity… 
I am done accepting verbal and mental torture from random strangers who don’t know anything about me… 
I am done being a compulsive over eater 
I am done over eating… 
I am done being worried that I wont find something in my size …
I am done being concerned that I don’t look good in something because of my size… 
I am done being making excuses…  
I am done stressing out about my size and letting it affect what and how i eat...
I am done being the Funny Fat Friend thats great to talk to and hang out with, 
   but doesn’t get included in things because she’s fat and they don't want to embarrass me... 
I am done being paranoid about eating in public, like I’m being judged by what i order and 
   how i eat it… ‘SHE’S ordering chicken wings .. really?!’
I am done being paranoid about what I buy at the supermarket, if someone looks in my trolly, 
   would they approve? 
I am done feeling sorry for myself! I’m tired of hiding behind fat clothes, 
   this summer I'm gonna be comfortable!
I am done being super self conscious... 
I am done lying to myself...
I am done being lazy...
I am done trying to hide my body... 
I am done not wearing the clothes I WANT too but the clothes 
   I HAVE to to cover me up and make the best of a bad body!
I am done wearing high heels and sitting down most of the time cause they hurt... 
   I LOVE my shoes too much not to show em off!
I am done not living the best life I can and not just for me but for my loved ones too
I am done putting myself last on the priority list. 
I am done watching minutes and days fly by without counting toward 
   something greater than where I'm at... 
I am done being overweight and unhealthy. ..
I am done being unhappy with myself...
I am done making myself feel that I'm not good enough... 
I am done feeling bad about what I did to myself... 
I am done being afraid to wear shorts in public... 
I am done being jealous...
I am done going shopping with them and hanging out with the accessories because 
   I'm too fat to buy the clothes in their shops
I am done feeling sorry for myself!
I am done being embarrassed to be me...
I am done thinking I'm not good enough...
I am done feeling tired before everyone else...
I am done shopping in only plus size shops!
I am done not being able to wear cute high heeled boots cause my calves are too big...  
I am done never wearing an actual dress, only trousers, skirts and tops 
   because I think they hide my belly better.  
I am done carrying around what feels like a whole other person everywhere I go... 
I am done saying the words "If only.." and "I wish.." and "One day.." 
I am done using food to make myself feel better, it doesn't work... 
I am done squeezing into my own bathtub... 
I am done saying 'tomorrow' ...
I am done saying I wished I looked like that! 
I am done just lying there when I could be on top!! 
I am done with the sensible bullet proof knickers.. I want lacy MATCHING stuff and I wanna see it!!!!
I am done feeling embarrassed when we go out to eat because 
  I know people are waiting for me to pig out... 
I am done with shopping in the "special sizes" section, and with the assumption that just 
   because I'm fat, I must have no sense of taste! 
I am done letting the crisps win... 
I am done with the muffin tops 
    and muffin sides, and muffin bottoms, and any other muffin related issues!!! 
 I am done pretending that my weight doesn't bother me...
I am done feeling tired all the time because I drag this big body around... 
I am done making excuses not to lose weight... 
I am done thinking I'm ugly just because I'm fat... 
I am done with inhibition (going at it with gusto this time! woohoo!)  
I am done dreading trying to find jeans that will fit over my ass... 
I am done with letting my weight run my life for me!!! 
I am done treating my body like its junk... 
I am done making excuses because I'm too afraid I'll fail! 
   failure is not an option this time so there is no excuse! 
I am done being looked down on for being overweight...
I am done being teased...  
I am done getting weight lectures from my doctor... 
I am done having 3 chins... 
I am done being the fat girl with 'such a pretty face'...
I am done being self conscious about what my arms look like when I wear sleeveless tops... 
I am done starting a diet and then just falling off again... 
I am done making excuses... 
I am done feeling like the "ugly" friend... 
I am done starting and stopping...
I am done thinking that my self worth has anything to do with what I weigh...  
I am done not being confident anymore...
I am done not feeling appreciated...
I am done relying on food to make me happy! 
I am done feeling guilty! 
I am done with sitting on the sidelines!
I am done letting others effect me!!  
I am done listening to negative thoughts!! 
I am done with negativity!! 
I am done not believing in me 100%!!   
I am done wasting time feeling bad about myself!  
I am done thinking that I have something to prove to others!  This is all for me! 
I am done stressing about hurtful family members and their big mouths... 
I am done letting words hurt me that come from people that have never had a weight problem!
I am done with stretch jeans... 
I am done with granny underwear... 
I am done covering up my cozzie on holidays...
I am done worrying if I'm going to fit in the restaurant booth... 
I am done undressing in the dark... 
I am done wondering if the people snickering next to me are doing so because of my weight... 
I am done squeezing into what I used to call "my fat jeans". 
I am done giving away cute clothes because I don't believe I can ever wear them again... 
I am done feeling like the least attractive girl at the party... 
I am done buying clothes with elastic waistbands... 
I am done wasting my precious life ...
I am done wishing I looked like someone else... 
I am done holding myself back... 
I am done putting myself last and feeling alone about it... 
I am done doing for others because I'm the big girl and what else would I be doing...  
I am done saying I don't have time for me, I'm important.. I need to make time for me! 
I am done being scared that I won't fit in places... 
I am done getting out of breath just going upstairs... 
I am done being the FAT friend...
I am done with not having energy. ..
I am done hiding in my own house! 
I am done not being able to cross my legs, like a lady...
I am done putting off life until I am "skinny"... 
I am done with plus size clothes not even fitting right...   
I am done with putting everyone else before me and my health... 
I am done feeling like I am going to burst right out of my clothes... 
I am done with the rolls of fat that have grown with the sadness... 
I am done with feeling miserable all the time... 
I am done wearing black everyday because it slims, yeah right!
I am done with hearing "you have such a pretty face, if only you lost a bit of weight... 
I am done looking into the mirror and not recognizing the person starring back at me! 
I am done not having the outside, match who is on the inside! 

I am done DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE!!!!!


Clearly I was DONE!!! but when I feel like I'm hitting a wall... I read it... I read it last night... and I realise that some things on the list don't even apply to me any more... Lots of things on that list don't even bother me now... but it reminds me of where I've been and I don't want to go back there... and THAT gives me the kick in the pants I need... 

I wrote it in anger... I was in a very sad place at the time... I remember crying whilst I typed it, hence all the typos and spaces ... but I was furious... furious at myself  I know there are lots of things that sound the same... but looking back now I know those issues meant so much... Now I read it with a touch of sadness and realise that I'm a lot stronger and more capable than I ever thought I was... and I'd like to be friends with that girl and give her a hug... 

SO if this is what it takes... do it! Write a list of where I guarantee by the time you've finished reading it you'll not only be back on the wagon... you'll be driving it! 

Whatever you do... don't regret or feel guilty about what's done... life is very short... Do what you need to do now... 



Lazy... is not an option!


Some days you just need that kick in the pants... Like a proper telling off! The other night I sat in front of the telly for 3 solid hours! I only got up to make tea and go to the loo! I wasn't in good form but I know if I'd got up off my bum I'd have felt so much better after a walk around the neighbourhood! Some days I really have to shout at myself...

JUST GET UP DOLL! GO FOR A WALK! JUST DO IT! 

I always feel so much better when I exercise, my head is clearer and I have loads more energy... I sleep better too! There's no point whingeing at the scales when we know we dedicated more time to the soaps on telly than to our weightloss journey! 

So lets go this week... All exercise is good for us! Lazy isn't an option anymore! 

Kabuto Noodles

I'm a devil for packaging... be it make up or food I'm just drawn to it! I spotted these in my local greengrocer / deli... Normally I steer well clear of anything like this but I thought I'd SmartPoint them just to see... high enough but there 450g in each one once they're 'cooked' so it's a decent portion... 

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Kabuto Rice Noodles, Vegetable Laksa
per 450g as consumed - 10SP



Kabuto Rice Noodles, Chilli Chicken Ramen
per 450g as consumed - 11SP



Kabuto Rice Noodles, Miso Ramen
per 450g as consumed - 9SP



Kabuto Rice Noodles, Beef Pho
per 450g as consumed - 9SP



Kabuto Rice Noodles, Chicken Ramen
per 450g as consumed - 10SP 




Note to self...


If you've ever had a binge you will totally get this post... 

I have had an emotional connection with food since I was a child... for as long as I can remember it's been a friend and an enemy... When I left school and started college and uni, I took control something that for so long had been controlled for me... and I lost the run of myself with that power! 

I became so good at hiding my eating disorder that I used to be secretly so pleased with myself, that I had 'conned' my friends and family... in fact some of them still don't know! That mindset of feeling like I'd won some prize by bingeing and purging without anyone knowing was all in my head... All I felt at the end of every binge was unhappy... sick... sore... my teeth hurt... my stomach ached... my whole body would shake and I'd be sitting on the floor in floods of tears wondering how someone smart like me ended up like this... It was a vicious cycle that took years for me to break and there are still times when I binge, but I've learned to control it a lot more... You don't need to have an eating disorder to know how it works... if you're an emotional eater then you've been there... when you eat crap, when you fill your body up with processed foods and over indulge in alcohol you body makes it pretty clear its not happy... That 1 minute of satisfaction ends up making you miserable... The trick is to realise what's making you unhappy, and find the solution without using food... I know sometimes only a chocolate bar will make you feel any better but 2 bars... 3... not fixing the problem just muting it for a while... 

Crappy food (although it's delicious thanks to all the additives!) make crappy skin, crappy sleep... craving even more rubbish to satisfy that slat and sugar overdose, and feeling like you're a human waste bin (which FYI does NOTHING for your self esteem!) not to mention how your body deals with the aftermath! 

Sure we all indulge in a night out but when you eat well, and drink enough water.. you feel better... It's learning to limit the crap, indulge once in a while... Nothing is off the menu but remember when a bar of chocolate was a treat? Not a daily energy boost... 

Give your body the fuel it needs this week... and you'll feel amazing!  



Savour Bakes, Thins...

These are VERY popular in casa Kinsella! See, as a crisp junkie anything salty and crunchy is a win with me! These THINS are from ALDI and the Sweet chilli ones are to die for (honestly, no drama here, they are FAB!), for 1SP per thin they'll satisfy that crunch but don't forget to point what you put on top! 

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Savour Bakes Thins, Sweet Chilli
per 8g thin - 1SP
2 x thins - 2SP
3 x thins - 3SP



Savour Bakes Thins, Multi seed
Per 10g thin - 1SP
2 x thins - 2SP
3 x thins - 3SP



Savour Bakes Thins, Cheddar & Cracked Black pepper 
Per 7g thin - 1SP
2 x thins - 2SP
3 x thins - 3SP

You are more!



It's very easy to get hung up on numbers when you're losing weight... the scales can make us joyful or miserable... a number on a label in a pair of jeans can make up feel like we're not working hard enough... See, I'm a numbers gal... I love tracking, I love measuring stuff out for recipes but I don't always love what the scales says when I think I've had a good week and I 'deserve' a loss... It can be the very thing that starts me thinking that it's not working... but think about all the other things... Did that jacket zip up on you this week? Are your clothes feeling looser? Have you lost inches? Did someone mention how well you look? Did you get up the stairs without breaking a sweat? Did you walk further than you did last month? Have you passed your goal for your daily steps count? Is your skin clearer from all the water you've been drinking? 

The scales is just one tool in the weight loss box... Don't let it stop your journey!

Creationz...

Beanz.. meanz... yup, we all remember the ad! 
These are out at the moment and if you're a bean fan (I LOVE THEM!) it's nice to add a a bit of variety... The problem when you're trying to eat healthy all the time is you get stuck in a rut and eat the same thing over and over because you know the points of it and it's easier to just stick with what you know... Add half a tin of these to a baked potato is a fab dinner! Really filling and SO easy on these wet and miserable nights! Worth a look if you're a bean fan! 

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Heinz Creationz - Lentil Curry
per 195g half tin - 4SP 
per 390g tin - 8SP 



Heinz Creationz - Tagine Chickpeas
per 195g half tin - 6SP 
per 390g tin - 12SP 



Heinz Creationz - Veg Chilli Beanz
per 195g half tin - 4SP 
per 390g tin - 9SP 



Heinz Creationz - Mexican Beanz
per 195g half tin - 4SP 
per 390g tin - 9SP 


It IS painful...



For some people, heading off to the park in the morning for a 5k run is completely normal and a pleasure... for more of us it's a feeling of pure dread... It starts in the bedroom before you even get out of bed, stay with me on this... 

WHAT am I going to wear? I need something that will cover me up but I won't sweat so much that someone called the paramedics! Is it raining? Maybe I shouldn't bother going? I'll go tomorrow... What shoes are comfy? Did I break-in that new pair I got two years ago enough that I won't get a blister if I wear them now? Will people be blinded by the bright pink because these trainers have never been outside my house before? I better bring some water and I'll bring some for the car too! Coat or no coat? That sweaty thing again... no make up.. ABSOLUTELY NONE... but of course the second you don't put on a lash of mascara it's like a school reunion! Water proof mascara... yep... at least I'll look like I have two eyes... Right... where will I go? Where's got a car park? (Don't say you haven't thought it too!?) ... and not TOO busy... I don't want to say good morning to the world whilst they think 'she'll be a while stomping around here losing all that fat!' but not too quiet that there's not someone around to call an ambulance! Will I need a scarf, I'll probably die of over heating but people will stare at me if I don't wear a scarf...' The location is set and off you go... you get there... you do your walk and you feel great... So what if it was 10 mins round and back... so what if you had to stop on the way round, WHY do you think the seats are there?!?! What if everyone just stares at me? No one will stare at you, they're all too busy walking themselves... no one will mention your weight... You may be breathless and you had to stop twice ... but you did it... now tomorrow we'll aim to only stop once!

That my friends is how you start... you go through the mind games and that's all they are MIND GAMES... You LEAVE the house and one foot in front of the other you do your first walk... and tomorrow you will do it again... when I first started walking I left my house in the dark of night and walked for 10 mins... and I HAD to walk home I wouldn't dare call someone to come get me I'd be mortified! 20 mins of walking done! Yes, it did hurt... I was carrying three people on my joints... I was tired... I did get blisters and it was sore but soon 10 mins became 15 mins and I realised I was much further from the house that I'd been the previous week... I could walk to get the paper and back... NOTE: ONLY bring enough money for the paper!  You will be surprised at how quickly you progress... last year I did the mini marathon... I had done it years ago and honestly never thought I would do it again... so it can be done... those aches and pains are worth the results... take that first baby step today as painful as it might be... x

March - #wwphotoaday



March! MARCH is upon us already! Wasn't it New Years Eve only last weekend?!?! EEK!

For those who do the #WWPHOTOADAY challenge over on Instagram here's my fav month!
St. Patricks Day, my birthday... love it! Plus daffodils are in full swing, lotsa rugby and the evenings getting brighter! YAY!

Play along everyday or just pop in whenever you fancy and don't forget to use the # so you can see what everyone is up to... it's great for sharing ideas and getting tips!

Can't wait to see this months pics... you'll find me >>> HERE !







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